Category Archives: Thoughts

Madame Bovary c’est moi

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Note: This seems kind of silly to say, but lots of Madame Bovary spoilers follow. -SL

Louise posted a thread on FriendFeed about “comfort books” or books that one reads over and over again for a sense of well-being (or something like that). I thought I didn’t really have such a book and was about to post a comment saying so, but then I remembered Madame Bovary.

I first read Madame Bovary in college, but I think not for a college course. Paul Edwards had adapted “The Legend of St. Julian the Hospitalier” and “A Simple Life” for the stage, and I had a part in the ensemble. I hadn’t read Flaubert before and I was more intrigued by the thought of working with Paul than I was excited about the source material. But it’s hard to work with literature night after night and not come to a deeper appreciation for it, and that’s what happened with me and Flaubert.

I’m pretty sure I read Madame Bovary as part of that experience. I then may have re-read it the next year or later that same academic year when I took a class with Paul that dealt with performing Madame Bovary. We read the novel, we read Paul et Virginie, we watched an opera, the opera that Emma and Leon go to see together before screwing in the back of the cab. ( I just checked, and I remember incorrectly–the opera is where she meets Leon for the second time, and the bouncing cab ride necessarily comes later. I still can’t recall the name of the opera.) It was in this class where I read Mario Vargas Llosa’s The Perpetual Orgy, a book that I think was on the recommended reading list, or perhaps we read a photocopied chapter.

I found the novel fascinating and Vargas Llosa’s response to the book struck a chord with me. He wrote of how, during a very dark time in his life when he thought he might kill himself, he returned to Madame Bovary again and again, especially to Emma’s suicide scene. He felt that Emma was killing herself so that he might live. And I think (and I think I thought) that this is a perfect, moving response to this novel. Emma reads her romance novels and finds that her life will never compare to her fantasies of how life and love should be, and her dissatisfaction leads to everything–her affairs, her debt, her suicide. Vargas Llosa reads Madame Bovary and finds that his sadness and self-hatred are expressed so exquisitely, so strangely in the book that he need not kill himself.

The people in Madame Bovary are all fools and charlatans, leaving a wake of destruction that they seem to be unaware of. (I was thinking today that the Cohen Brothers should adapt the novel into a film set in present-day Minnesota or something.) It is easy to feel superior to them or contemptuous of them. But I think that one of the keys to enjoying the novel is Flaubert’s statement, “Madme Bovary c’est moi.” The book forces me to perform the trick of seeing Emma for the fool that she is while also seeing myself fully in the fool. Is this something like what Freaks and Geeks does but without the comforting haze of nostalgia? Yes, I am that foolish, yes I am that vain, yes I am that tacky, yes I am that egotistical, that conniving, that self-deceiving.

The writing knocks me out every time I read the book too, though of course I’m not capable of reading the French. Regardless, the translations seem to all have the same sense of words used economically, with understatement. Flaubert writes with a scalpel, not a cutlass (or a blunderbuss like David Foster Wallace).

How, though, could this be comfort reading (apart from the guard against suicide that Vargas Llosa mentions)? I think that comfort reading might often involve those passages and details that are mostly remembered and then appear in the novel and don’t disappoint, but just sink in deeper as right, as inevitable, as perfect. Even in just the first few chapters I read today there are so many moments like this. Charles’ hat and his pathetic cry of “Charbovari!” The first Mrs. Bovary’s bony shoulders and cold feet, and her death: “She was dead! How surprising!” Emma licking the drop of liquor from the bottom of the glass. The convent’s relief at Emma’s departure. Emma reflecting on her desire for a honeymoon in a more exotic location: “It seemed to her that certain places on earth must produce happiness, like a plant native to that soil which grows poorly anywhere else. Why could she not be leaning over the balcony of some Swiss chalet, or nursing her melancholy in a cottage in the Highlands, with a husband wearing a long-skirted coat of black velvet, soft boots, a pointed hat, and ruffles at the wrist!”

Vladimir Nabokov’s illustration of Charles’ hat.

I find it a joy to read at the level of the sentence. At the level of the plot and the characters, I find it something that makes me very satisfied in the welling up of contradictory feelings and thoughts. They are all vain fools who make terrible decisions and show little understanding of themselves. And yet, if Flaubert were to write of my life and my blindnesses and my petty egotism, would it not sound the same? That’s not to say that I think this is the point of the novel, but it’s one of the ways that it gives me an apparently endless supply of happiness.

World of Goo design tour

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Design Tour – World of Goo from David Rosen on Vimeo.

Interesting and perceptive analysis of the design of my current favorite game, World of Goo. This video actually gives away a lot of level designs and gameplay–in some ways I wish I hadn’t watched it, since it showed several levels in detail that I haven’t seen yet. Maximize the video for best results. (Via Waxy.)

Why are you in my bathroom?

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You know you have been working at a place for a while when you start to think of one of the public restrooms as your private bathroom, and when you open the door and see someone is already there washing his hands or something you think “what the hell are you doing in my bathroom?”

The US will be the Eastern Europe of the 21st century

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I was traveling last week, looking around the gateway at the airport at all the empty desks where there was no one to help me, not finding any ticket wallets at any of the desks, talking to employees who were too busy complaining to each other to be very interested in me, and I thought that I was witnessing the tip of the iceberg. The thought occurred to me that the United States in the 21st century will resemble Eastern Europe in the 20th.

I saw this idea reflected today in the post Overheard Comments from United Airlines Employees on Telstar Logistics. Here is the quote:

We’ve flown most of these airlines at least once during the last year or so, and the experiences are hard to differentiate: All were dismal. The aircraft are old, crowded, and uncomfortable, but most of all, we’ve grown weary of listening to airline cabin crew kvetching about their work schedules and grievances with senior management. This is what it must’ve been like to fly Aeroflot Soviet Airlines back in the Brezhnev Era.

The airline industry is going down the tubes in terms of even pretending it is in some kind of customer service business. As higher fuel prices affect other areas of the economy, we’ll see the dirty, poorly maintained workplace everywhere. As grocery stores (for example) can’t afford to compete on price or service and become unable to import huge varieties of fresh food from all over, we’ll see those conditions there, too, and I assume it will cascade to other areas of public and private life.

You know how you have your internet where the people you know or know of or know about get together…

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You know how you have your internet where the people you know or know of or know about get together in cyberspace to do their beautiful cranky sad funny inspiring internet thing? And then one of them will post a link that opens up this whole other internet with all these other hitherto-unknown people doing a completely different thoughtful wacky creative internet thing?

Yeah. You gotta love that.